Friday, 21 October 2011

Liltië.

Since we first met, you've been nothing but nice to me. You've said amazing things to me, and you've made me feel like I'm the most important person in the world. It has been drawn to my attention that all I do, in return, is the exact opposite. I do love you, honestly I do, but I don't think I'm showing it properly.. Actually, I'm not showing it at all. I'm sorry that I keep shutting you down. I don't think you believe me anymore, but I love you.
Seriously. And I'm trying to not tell you that I don't anymore. You always did it jokingly, so I assumed I could, too. And I think I just screwed everything up. I'm so sorry. I think I've screwed up our relationship. Maybe this is why I can't claim that I've "fallen in love with you as a person," like you can. Maybe it's because I've been too spiteful to let myself love you. I think I can change. I've been paying more attention to my boyfriend than to the person who led us together in the first place. That person, of course, would be you. Even if he leaves, I know you'll stay with me forever. From now on, I'm actually going to prove that I love you. I'm not sure how, but I'll find a way. I'll make you believe me.

1 comment:

  1. I appear to have stumbled across this, and I want you to know something: I do believe you when you say I love you. You have not screwed up our relationship. I'm selfish and want you entirely for myself is all.
    You have no idea how happy it makes me to read this, your true feelings.
    As long as you continue to embrace me forever my darling I will believe you. <3
    -Your Liltië.

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